Soul sisters, are sisters the Lord sent to us!

This quote put a grin on my face so BIG!

I have precious girlfriends. My oldest bestie came into

my world July 4th 1977. I would be in 8th grade that year

she was a year below me in 7th grade.

There was a time, approx 20 years. were contact was scarce.

I reached for her, once a year? maybe? I always sent her a Christmas card.

She was in a 'Not good relationship'

once in a while things would slip out of her...

but she was a shell of who she was suppose to be!

She finally made the hard choice to leave this man

after 20 years...and

within weeks...we were on the phone again...

daily, weekly...till this day!

True Friendship, picks up were it left off,

It carries no grudge, no harm, it is pure...it understands

everything!

Oh the mischief she and I would get into.... :)

This picture was taken in 2010

we had not seen each other in 15 years!

I went to a lil brothers wedding. she was 5 hours away and came too!

two of my daughters were there as well.

I think they were amused by the laughter and seeing there

mom with the one bestie that made her

turn into a teenager again!

But our history is that 'BIG'

our first Kiss and our first date,

our first heartbreak and our insecurities...

all wrapped up in years of friendship!

She has 'become' all she ever was... this is a recent picture

with her daughter!

sometimes, our souls need to leave the unhealthy to 

become what God intended us to become!

Two other precious friends I have

are my two Montana Girl friends.

One is 69yrs old... she was my rock,

as I went through many difficult things in my life.

and My Miss Blue, who is my age...

I know, the lord put all these beautiful ladies in my life!

( I also have a handful on Girlfriends that are not as close

but still as beautiful in every way) 

However, one friendship can never out do another.

a newer friend is just as cherished as a older friend.

Simply, because...they are soul sisters,

that  the Lord sent to us!

I cam home from work, to find this BIG box on my porch!

I was very surprised to see it. 

I thought,
"who left there box's on my porch"

and then the next thought was...

"If that box is for me? who is it from?"

( my porch isn't the prettiest...the 1920's bungalow needs some

extreme outside help :)

Inside the box was a 'love Basket' for Valentine's day...

and the beautiful friend behind the basket's ?

Linda!

I have not met any friends yet. In this new place I am at.

and on the journey I am on...

these treasures from Girl friends,

open my heart, bring sunshine to a cloudy day...

and make me feel loved, "for just who I am"

Linda and Vicky I met in 'blog' land.

I never new I could meet 'soul sisters...

without meeting them face to face!

But I have and I did!

what they both never new...is I was very alone...

very! On the road in a 5th wheal...

with no real companionship of any kind.

sometimes, no music, no t.v...

just me and sometimes no car either.

YET

THEY SAW ME!

and posted, emailed and reached out...

through the gift of cyber space...

filling my heart and soul...

with Friendship and Love!  

Vicky sent me this beautiful Necklace at Christmas, along with a book

and..... words that brought tears...just like Linda.

This however wasn't my first box from Linda...it is my 3rd box!

and through these last couple months...

those box's have given sunshine to cloudy days!

there however was ONE thing in this box from Linda

 that took my breath away...

A picture she drew this past December, while In Hawaii

with the love of her life..her Bert!

the original picture went to her grand daughter.

YET...I had no clue

that as talented as she is in writing, as big as her heart is...

and the love she showers on all who know her...

she is a 

ARTIST!!!

 my smile grew bigger and bigger and bigger...

for sometimes

soul sisters, tend to have allot in common

with you!

a like mindedness or kindred spirit!

Thank you so so much Linda!

To all my soul  sisters and ones I have yet to meet!

do you know the beauty you add to my world?

do you know, just how precious

you are to me?

Thank you for you...from the bottom of my heart and beyond...

I am humbled and so blessed to have you

in my life!!!

I Love You!

The dance has become a Waltz......

Moon River

wider then a mile

I'.m Crossing you in style someday...

                             The Tango has turned into a slow peaceful waltz. 

The kind that puts you at ease..the kind that takes you back to when you were a child.

 Life seemed easier then. I think it is just being a child that makes everything easier. . that wonderful innocence of childhood. 

The Surgeon allowed that even tho the skin is healing nicely my right breast inside will take some months. I had no clue there is a pocket of fluid in there...and that the tissue is 'traumatized' Personally speaking I would be to after such an invasion! So basically the breast in this area is coarse and hard. I see it like the breast tissue is looking like a "Halloween cat' with it's back arched and it's fist in fight mode...Again I cant say I blame that tissue at all. 

This will calm down in time. Internal bruising takes much longer. Radiation at this point would be a waste of time and money. only pre-cancerous cells re-main.

 I did however have the option to take 'Tamoxifen'. this is used for many women/men with advanced breast cancer..and women like me, who want to prevent it returning.

 However I have already been studying this...and the "Tamoxifen' would mess with my estrogen levels... aaah ooh and basically it would throw me into menopause! Since the odds of it returning are low I choose NOT to take the 'Tamoxifen' I like the way my body is functioning without drugs and the whole 'menapause' thing scares me..and I just do not want to go there yet......" I am like my breast tissue on this one..."she who stands fighting for time with her fists at the heavens, saying Please not yet...time please..time???" lol

There are also other side affects to the Tamoxifen.

 I figure with a mammogram in 6 months and yearly check-ups and being hyper vigilant if it returns we will capture it once again. I feel strongly all will be well. I want to be me.... and so the choice was mine...I am comfortable with the Waltz and knowing in my gut and heart and mind...all will be more then ok. 

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 take a moment to listen. To one of my Favorite

waltz's

Moon River with Audrey Hepburn

A one of a kind cardboard 'Barbie dream house' for under $10

When I am creating...everything else goes away!

My lil Poppie (Dutch for Dolly)

my Brunette lil princess looking 4 yr old granddaughter

wanted a barbie dream house.

Her Nana is now on a very tight budget...but one day at work

I saw box's

and I smiled and thought..,I can make her one!

the elevator was very important...because

the Barbie dream house has one..but it cost like $149.00

I realized with rope...I could create a elevator!

It works! and holds on it's own.

I work at a hardware store and

well everyone got involved as they 

saw my imagination run wild.....

Everything created out of box's from work!

The downstairs living room and Kitchen.

I used Mog podge and fabric...

I so love mod podge!

  

Lil toss pillows on the couch!

I found plastic measuring spoons and the thrift store.

they were perfect for sinks and toilets!

and wire became the faucets and handles :)

Yes, this Barbie dream house has a toilet!

everything was thing's I had in my creative bag!

The upstairs, master suite :)

A princess bed..with vintage lace and even a lil chenille throw!

Nana's chandelier's became better as she learned to create them out of beads

and wire and little plastic circles.

Carpets were made from felt. I lightly sprayed paint the box's inside and out.

I  would have used more spray paint had I had it!

and I would of edged things..but this Nana was 

on a budget!

The lil mirrors I found in our town...

they were perfect and only cost $2

I spent approx. 12 hours on this "homemade one of a kind, Barbie dream house"

This Nana wanted her dream to come true!

The top is a outdoor patio

My camera battery died. I never got pic's of the patio

area finished...but there are chairs up there...

and barbie loves to hang there with her

ken :) 

I guess the real Prof was when I delivered it! My Poppie with her 

eye's big as saucers said, Nana, you made me MY Barbie dream house!

she plays with our 5 yr old grandson. Her Cousin M.

he takes his Ninjas to play with Barbie!

and even tho it was for both to play with

our MJ now wants Nana to build him something...

the other day...

I spotted some box's...

and the vivid imagination of this Nana

saw what these box's could become.

it is a much simpler project..

and we are almost done with it!

Meanwhile the bathtub above in the barbie dream house,

did get water put into it! But my Poppies Momma

caught her and it dried out real well!

But that means, in her mind

it is all REAL

and that is what this Nana wanted for her!

This Nana's head is full of things...and so I am

working on a dream...

something I have never done.

something I saw in my mind...and that

still small voice whispered..."Do it"

I am sculpturing...

something I never new I could do...

and I am thrilled that so far...we are doing it...

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can

just a tiny sneak preview

This is only a ruff in...I worked on kneck and torso and Male

definition...but I can say...since I have never done this before...

I am pleased with the start of this Project :)

much more to go :)

This is My Poppie looking in the mirror

at a bridal shop...it's blurry but well... It says it all!

love this lil princess of mine. 

And here we are swinging!

The creative side...allows for GOOD day's

when my soul fly Free's

and I am so grateful for those days.

for this journey has also hard day's

in facing myself and wondering...and learning why

I allowed so much for so long...

Thanks for stopping by...

love to hear from you! 

A love story...for 'love Day' !

If your anything like me...don't you love a true,

beautiful 'Love story'

I sure do!

But before we share this story..I was blessed to

spend love day with 3 grandchildren and my youngest daughter.

We frosted cupcakes, danced and played with

play dough! Nana even made the roses above out of play dough...

Much to the utter delite of the older two grandchildren

in this picture :)

I call Valentines 'love day' because sometimes people don't 

have a valentine...and yet, we all have love!

I did this many ,many years ago...

a day to celebrate those we love..and 

to realize how loved we are, 

by many many people!

I went to Linda's blog...

and I want to share her today...

because this is what love is...DO not forget to play the link and listen to the song!

I never heard it before...

BUT IT IS A FAVORITE NOW :)

A 'True' love story 

Happy 'love' day

may you know...

you are loved!

Sometimes when peace comes...it is like dancing barefoot!

"When the Japanese mend broken objects,

they aggrandise the damage

by filling the cracks with gold,

They believe that when something

suffered damage and has history

it becomes more beautiful!

~Barbara Bloom~

The lumpectomy results came back...

they got all the cancer cells!

it was more complicated due to location.

left behind are still

Pre-cancerous cells

this means, that I must be very hyper vigilant

on breast health...

the odds of it coming back...

are a bit stacked against me.

however we will discuss

some things and I will understand

things better when I go to Post-op

appointment next week...

and the scars on my breast...

they show me a journey

a journey of life!

I am dancing barefoot with this news

and the first thing that came to mind was

"This girl is on Fire'

 the song from Alicia Key's

I had not listened to the lyrics before..

but I just loved how she sings

this girl is on fire...

sometimes dancing barefoot

and joy come from

rejoicing in moments...

singing and

letting the thrill

of the journey out! 

This girl is on fire

Breast lumpectomy/biopsy Surgery/ Dancing onward

I seem to notice many things... 

 in the hallways leading to the dance.

 I notice, equipment, and the hallways lights, others waiting in there rooms...and the feeling's of being in these hallway's.

 All sounds and senses seem to be heightened. The coolness of the surgery room and my name on a chalk board. How skinny the surgery table is and the big light's..

Then I am under and gone. Missing hours I will never know. 

The dance with the surgeon took longer then expected. The one hour dance turned into 2 1/2 hours. Learning the Tango is never easy!  ile emoticonor as the surgeon put it, It was more complicated then we exspected. 

There is a lil metal chip that has been left in my right breast. I casually ask her again if this will give me super power's? I mean really..why not? 

The incision is bigger then the norm, but not bad. The pain meds are wonderful without the loopiness I expected...in fact I have done well with all the drugs.

 smile emoticon It seems the right breast has danced a marathon but it will heal. 

The results will be in sometime next week... I believe the dance isn't over yet. And I am ok with that... for I love the steps I am learning...steps and twirls and movements I would have never known.

 I know without a doubt this lil journey is teaching me more! I always love to dance!!! smile emoticon